討愛的人

當我發出離職通知的那天
很快的就收到很多客戶的回覆
當然大部分的人對於這樣的消息都感到sorry
但是讓我覺得更sorry的是我給她們我離開的原因是health issue
(雖然health issue是事實 但不是事實的全部)

收到雪片般飛來的信 我紅了眼框
可是突然間我了解了 他們這麼愛我和支持我
於是我覺得...我是個乞討愛的人

我在現實生活中感覺到壓力和沒有出口
所以我用健康去換取別人的關注和愛
很可悲 我是個笨蛋
笨到用健康去乞討愛
究竟What have I done to come to this point?

這個離職是個很大的代價
可是我並不想自憐
因為Let bygones be bygones
過去的好與壞都不重要了
我只感受到真心感謝他們成就我的這一切
重點是...
What I've done right?
What I've done wrong?
How do I balance the right and wrong and apply the harmony in my future life?

I am undoubtedly a blessed one...
Because people hardly quit their job as they want, especially when they're 30.
Becuase I have positive supports from Chris.
Because I can use the period to do whatever I wanted to do.
Because I have a new perspective to experience my life and the world.
This is a gift!

我只是休息...暫停一下
利用這幾個月好好充電
把握這得來不易的long vacation
我調整好之後 重新出發
No worries for me, as I'll be back!
I'll shine!